What am I running away from?

I have always said I don't care about what outsiders say. Its the people around me who mean to me more than normal people and their opinions, views and thinking that matters to me. So when I find that these people have a mentality which makes me sick, I cant take it anymore.

My friend Prashant tells me "You are running away." I totally agree. Yes I am. From this pathetic society where the "ONLY thing that MATTERS is MONEY". Yes, you can be a smuggler, an extortionist or a drug dealer, but if you earn good money, you get respect and you have the right to do & say anything. I mean "FUCK THAT". And you know what, this happens right in my home and my dad (yes the person who is very sadly & unluckily the one who gave me birth) has that kind of thinking. So I am running away from this crap and bull shit. I am running away from this pain that I have lived with for almost 28 years of my life & when I look back at it, I feel so damn sad about it that I never took this step earlier. The only thing I am worried about is mom being left out behind here.

This lady has lived through this pathetic situation for more than 30 years now and she is still there for us. On this mother's day, I feel so indebted to her for being there and living through this hell just because our lives become better. Mom, I know I haven't been a great son so far, but I promise you very soon I will be. I really need to get breath of fresh air, to live and experience life on my own and the day I have loads of money earned by working hard for it, I will take you away and make sure the rest of your life becomes heaven.

Sydney is still 2 months away and believe me I can hardly wait for that. I wish time flies and I land in Sydney ASAP. So looking forward to a new life. A very optimistic & positive about the future.

H@rdeep.